I had another entry in mind that basically would have turned into emotionally indignant ramblings not unlike a dinosaur crying blood because its foot is caught in a bear trap and it can't reach the doughnut box, and that is really freaking bad, okay!

HOWEVER, I don't care and neither do you, so, this is my message to myself.



So, yeah.

You know what's awesome? Lactose free ice cream. Lactose free ice cream is the best thing in my life.

I never thought the day would come that I would have to break up with reese's peanut butter cups. Thank you, body. Love you too.

Sometimes, I think school takes a great amount of pleasure out of academically cockblocking me on a daily basis.

One of these days I'm going to pokevolve into Superstorm Jes and rain down thunder and lightning and acts of god in my frustration.

Managed to embarrass myself in my political theory seminar by starting out making an awesome point, forgetting it halfway through (I blame the sick, you cannot stop me from doing this) and having to actually say, "I forgot what I was saying."

DW at large — or people I know and still check this — how do you get comfortable speaking in a room of people you don't know?

Whenever Dayquil says it's "non-drowsy", it's usually lying.

I seem to be doomed to get sick immediately succeeding the start of the semester. Thankfully, there is very little work for the first month of any semester and I can coast as much as I need to. Doing the bare minimum to stay caught up while my body fights off this foreign invader? BRING IT.

But, seriously, Dayquil? You need to stop tricking impressionable ladies with your promises of "non-drowsy" relief. I can barely sit upright.




...My head hurts. :(

Other people count calories? I count meals I skip!

( Monitoring my eating, take two. )

I'm just going to keep updating this regularly rather than posting anew each day, I think.

Another year draws to a close! Fare thee well, ogre.

Things that happened:

• Two of my father's sisters died within a few weeks of each other. This probably the most devastating and resulted in me throwing my hands up and proclaiming FUCK IT with so many things.


• My mother's sister-in-law was terminally diagnosed with regards to her cancer. She and my uncle have three children together, who are going to lose their mother within the next five years.


• Other death: My grandfather's brother, my father's best friend whose cabin I stayed at every summer as a child, a girl I trained with at my old job. (This is sounding incredibly morbid to list them all out but all this death happened between January and June, and coloured the first half of 2012. I was very unhappy, nearly to the point of depressed, but things did get better. I need to remember that too.)


• I quit my job of three years to attend university full time! I loved that job so much and I miss it, but I don't regret my decision. I want an education.


• I left the city I've lived in since I was five. Hilariously, three months after I moved away, they changed all the bus routes. Buses that I've rode since I was 15 are gone. That was the most telling indication that holy shit, things change.


• I survived another year without having a stroke.


• I went to England and Scotland! I've wanted to go to the United Kingdom for years and the trip was pretty much beyond my wildest dreams. Everything about it was just so beautiful, even the unfortunate parts — such as my phobia of flying and limping the entire trip.


• I fell in love. But, that's just for me. c:

All I can really say is, I survived. I went into 2012 with my fists up, ready to scare it into submission because 2011 was not especially pleasant, and things went so rapidly downhill I probably had whiplash.

I did teach myself two things, though:
1. To stop complaining, even if I don't stick to that all the time. I'm trying.
2. To not get upset over what's done. Learn from it, but don't fixate on it.

Most of all? All I want is to be happy. I deserve that. I'm going to make it happen.

As well, and stay with me, because this bears repeating: I am so grateful for all of you. Val and Yuul, my karma warriors and texting buddies, who make me smile through out the day. Kay, who pulled me into this new world and refused to let me run and hide, and endures more of me than anyone else, poor lady. Li, who is forever a source of knowledge and wisdom. Par, Lena, Oli, Ana, Apa, Ruxi, Heather/Kitten, Sari, Andreapants, Rica, Yaywon, Jelle, AC, Alex, Cricket, Casey, Catie, Sunny, Kate and Elyse: for all being such lovely and inspiring people. Sandy and Ari, my two beautiful and loyal knights, who are always there when I need them. Tsu, my most valiant and lovely dragon. Fearie, for introducing me to your wonderful family and being utterly shameless, I miss you. Haunt, for being the best Admiral (and the best hand-holder) a lieutenant could hope for! Ash, for supporting me through something unpleasant recently. ROSH, FOR CARRYING ME THROUGH GLASGOW LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING SUPERHERO. Sev and Rina, for amusing texts, heartfelt messages, and sticking with me despite the horrible burden of having once dealt with teenage me! Krist, for being brilliant -- let's catch up soon, bb. Anyone else I forgot, I'm sorry, I'm just lame, but rest assured, I ADORE YOU.

Kat and other!Alex, wherever they are, I miss you both terribly. Come back soon, we have a year or so to catch up on. ♥

And, of course, those important to me outside this internet business: my family, my friends, Connor and Jake and Alexa. All things considered, I am amazingly lucky.

I'm not going to say that 2013 can't possibly start off as poorly as 2012 did, because it completely can. The universe doesn't, in fact, owe me a win. Me, on the other hand? I owe myself a win, and I'm going to GET IT. YOLO. CAN'T BE TAMED. WHATEVER.

BRING IT, 2013. I HAVE A NEW SET OF ARMOR AND I'M TAKING YOU DOWN.

I made it to the end of the semester.

And now, I'm so out of reserves of energy, watching an episode of Bleach takes too much brain power. >_>




Yay, I did it! c: ...sob, all my paid accounts are going away at once.

It never fails, I fucking cannot have nice things.

There is nothing better than being in lecture, having a concept explained, and being the only one in the lecture hall who isn't confused.

I am such an amazing student. Suck it, everyone else! \o/



My first semester is approaching its end and I survived!

Now I just wish my pizza would hurry up. Seventeen to nineteen minutes, really? Really? Time is money!