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Captain's log:
Still sick. If possible, my fever has gotten even higher. Cannot concentrate long enough to accomplish more than half of anything at a time. Worried about falling behind on schoolwork. Watching a great deal of Cry Plays (and not understanding anything that is happening) to compensate.
...I want pizza.
Edit: Also, anyone know of any turn based combat video games with fully customisable protagonists? I'm having a craving.
Edit edit: Was lying in bed, got hit with an incredible case of sad. (Funny story: I had originally typed "the sads" and then remembered my complete and utter hatred of "feels" being used as a noun, and edited it. I will, in fact, be victim of my own hypocritical pretension!) One of my closest friends, who I've known for about ten years now, is leaving in a few days to do a year-long placement at Disneyworld as a Canadian ambassador or something, idk, SHE DRESSES LIKE A LUMBERJACK. That's how Florida sees us, apparently. Anyway, she's leaving in a few days and I am too sick to make the trip back to Burlington to say goodbye in person.
Sucks, that.
Also, everything else.
I think I've managed to forget my resolution to be happy in 2013. I've made myself miserable repeatedly, mostly due to fixating on stuff out of my control. Yes, it kind of sucks, and yes, all I've wanted to do these past two weeks is crawl into a hole and never come out. Get over it, self.
Toughen up.
Signed, me.
Still sick. If possible, my fever has gotten even higher. Cannot concentrate long enough to accomplish more than half of anything at a time. Worried about falling behind on schoolwork. Watching a great deal of Cry Plays (and not understanding anything that is happening) to compensate.
...I want pizza.
Edit: Also, anyone know of any turn based combat video games with fully customisable protagonists? I'm having a craving.
Edit edit: Was lying in bed, got hit with an incredible case of sad. (Funny story: I had originally typed "the sads" and then remembered my complete and utter hatred of "feels" being used as a noun, and edited it. I will, in fact, be victim of my own hypocritical pretension!) One of my closest friends, who I've known for about ten years now, is leaving in a few days to do a year-long placement at Disneyworld as a Canadian ambassador or something, idk, SHE DRESSES LIKE A LUMBERJACK. That's how Florida sees us, apparently. Anyway, she's leaving in a few days and I am too sick to make the trip back to Burlington to say goodbye in person.
Sucks, that.
Also, everything else.
I think I've managed to forget my resolution to be happy in 2013. I've made myself miserable repeatedly, mostly due to fixating on stuff out of my control. Yes, it kind of sucks, and yes, all I've wanted to do these past two weeks is crawl into a hole and never come out. Get over it, self.
Toughen up.
Signed, me.
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Not only am I an introvert, but I am also very bad at talking. Most of the time, I do not like being asked questions and do not like it when my personal life is prodded at. It's no one else's business, even if we are great friends. However, flip that over... when I do want to talk, it's like, "How do I begin? Have I given up that right?" This is a legit concern of mine, okay. >_> I CANNOT COMPREHEND THE RIDICULOUSNESS ON MY OWN, SOMEONE TELL ME I AM BEING STUPID.
I spent all of last week thinking, "I don't especially like kids, I don't even want kids all that much, but it suddenly really fucking sucks that thanks to the endo, I will never be a mother on my own." I know rationally that such a thing doesn't make me a waste of a person, but. Apparently I don't feel like being all that rational right now. By the time I get around to thinking, "I would make a good mom," ...yeah.
SO THAT BLOWS. A barrel of lethargic monkeys with one tin of applesauce, that.
I don't feel awesome right now.
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NEED TO LEARN TO REMEMBER THAT.
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The world is sorely lacking in good customization in games.
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