Maybe now I can shut up about this

[temples]

I kind of hate that a social networking site requires so much thought and worrying, "what if this," and, "what if that."

So. Plurk.

I hate it.

So, so much. It makes me feel completely ill a good deal of the time. I've held off on saying that because I don't want people to think it's because of them specifically. I'm not in the business of hurting feelings and that's not what I'm about here. If you're on my plurk timeline, I consider you a friend and I am glad you're in my life.

But, on the other hand, it's complete sensory overload. It's every single thought, every single bad thing, every complaint, every sad story. It's very difficult to appreciate someone when I feel they're screaming in my face, and that's essentially what plurk is. It enables over-sharing and it's not like I haven't been guilty of this, but I'm an introvert and a very private person. I cannot handle sensory overload.

My dear friend seventhe said it best with, "I love you, leave me alone. I love you, from a distance. I love you, give me some fucking space. I love you, now go away." That's completely me and I'm tired of feeling like distancing myself from plurk is being a bad friend. I will always give people avenues to contact me. I don't ignore people who message me or text me. That needs to be enough. Plurk is exhausting, and I need to put my energy toward other things. (I realise the quote and what came after it can be seen as contradictory but it's really not; it all boils down to me needing time and days to myself. We will still be friends if we don't talk for a week.)

I also don't like how I am and how I act on plurk, but that's just for me. I know how to fix it. There's no point in talking about that.

So I guess all that's left is for me to... delete it.

(unsure)

Comments

[mydarkrosaline]

This is something big for me, too. It makes me feel like I NEED someone to comment on the thing I've made or I've somehow failed to entertain or express myself as a person or ehhhh idk, Plurk is kind of toxic. It is GOOD for contacting multiple people over a private matter and keeping in touch but... Very much feeling you here.

My advice is just delete, hon. There's not a lot of pros for you staying and honestly when you consider 'no more plurk' as the first pro for leaving, it's probably time to do so.

I'm personally very had at initiating things on aim but I will keep in contact, here or there. Promise!

[temples]

Yeahhh. I logged out of it on both my computers and used my siteblock addon so I can force myself to take a few days away from it as a breather and see how I feel then. I'm afraid of losing contact with people, like Sandy and Ash and friends from other games and, most importantly, YOU. But it's not like I make myself inaccessible. People know where my DW is and can always message me on AIM.

It's just leaving it up to them that worries me, because it's understandably easier to focus on people who are accessible through the social platform of choice. Fuck I hate plurk

I'm glad you'll be keeping in contact, though! I like talking to you. ♥