Maybe now I can shut up about this

[temples]

I kind of hate that a social networking site requires so much thought and worrying, "what if this," and, "what if that."

So. Plurk.

I hate it.

So, so much. It makes me feel completely ill a good deal of the time. I've held off on saying that because I don't want people to think it's because of them specifically. I'm not in the business of hurting feelings and that's not what I'm about here. If you're on my plurk timeline, I consider you a friend and I am glad you're in my life.

But, on the other hand, it's complete sensory overload. It's every single thought, every single bad thing, every complaint, every sad story. It's very difficult to appreciate someone when I feel they're screaming in my face, and that's essentially what plurk is. It enables over-sharing and it's not like I haven't been guilty of this, but I'm an introvert and a very private person. I cannot handle sensory overload.

My dear friend seventhe said it best with, "I love you, leave me alone. I love you, from a distance. I love you, give me some fucking space. I love you, now go away." That's completely me and I'm tired of feeling like distancing myself from plurk is being a bad friend. I will always give people avenues to contact me. I don't ignore people who message me or text me. That needs to be enough. Plurk is exhausting, and I need to put my energy toward other things. (I realise the quote and what came after it can be seen as contradictory but it's really not; it all boils down to me needing time and days to myself. We will still be friends if we don't talk for a week.)

I also don't like how I am and how I act on plurk, but that's just for me. I know how to fix it. There's no point in talking about that.

So I guess all that's left is for me to... delete it.

(unsure)

Comments

[temples]

Okay, pro/con list time because I am a huge loser.

Pros:
+ NO MORE PLURK. (There's a lot of things those three little words encompass so let's just say it qualifies for like, six pros.)
+ More time for things that make me happy, since plurk does not make me happy. (Whatever happened to the, "Happiness is the highest form of wisdom" post-it I had on my computer? I clearly need to write a new one.)

Cons:
+ I'd definitely lose contact with some people.
+ 100% deleting it, I'd lose a lot of things I like going back and looking at.
+ I'd be "out of the loop". (Which begs the question... do I want to be in the loop?)

I really need to learn how to make a fucking decision for myself. Especially when it basically boils down to is, "keep it and keep pretending it doesn't make me miserable," or, "be free of it and FLY AWAY LIKE A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BIRD."

[temples]

I keep thinking of things I want to do but haven't yet, and it's weird, because Plurk isn't necessarily the thing keeping me from them — my fear of ignoring someone by not being on Plurk is. Like playing Tales of Vesperia or watching fun YouTube playthroughs of Sierra games or finally going to a movie by myself like I've wanted to do for weeks.

...yeah, I have my answer. Sorry, plurk.

[sincere]

SIERRA GAMES

/the end

[temples]

King's Quest VI, Kay. It was glorious.

[sincere]

I remember that game! I sucked at it!

Of course, the game was cheating, since there were things in it like "If you use X item at Y time you can never beat the game," or "If you don't pick up A before B happens you can never beat the game."

But the important part is, I sucked at it. :)

[temples]

Yeah, I'm pretty sure some of the King's Quest games are a whole new level of Nintendo Hard. I like watching other people play them, mainly because I cannot figure out DOSBox for the life of me.

[sincere]

Sierra was a bitch. I loved their games so much, though.

[temples]

Sierra sustained itself on your tears of rage.

[temples]

Keeping one last note here as a reminder for myself: Plurk has severely conditioned me to look for validation in the responses from others, and that needs to stop, now. I am better than that. My awesomeness shines through the walls! :D

[temples]

Can you tell I'm still in the habit of layering my own thoughts for plurk-style consumption.

Can you.

[mydarkrosaline]

This is something big for me, too. It makes me feel like I NEED someone to comment on the thing I've made or I've somehow failed to entertain or express myself as a person or ehhhh idk, Plurk is kind of toxic. It is GOOD for contacting multiple people over a private matter and keeping in touch but... Very much feeling you here.

My advice is just delete, hon. There's not a lot of pros for you staying and honestly when you consider 'no more plurk' as the first pro for leaving, it's probably time to do so.

I'm personally very had at initiating things on aim but I will keep in contact, here or there. Promise!

[temples]

Yeahhh. I logged out of it on both my computers and used my siteblock addon so I can force myself to take a few days away from it as a breather and see how I feel then. I'm afraid of losing contact with people, like Sandy and Ash and friends from other games and, most importantly, YOU. But it's not like I make myself inaccessible. People know where my DW is and can always message me on AIM.

It's just leaving it up to them that worries me, because it's understandably easier to focus on people who are accessible through the social platform of choice. Fuck I hate plurk

I'm glad you'll be keeping in contact, though! I like talking to you. ♥

[lassarina]

Certainly I would miss you there, because I'm often better at keeping up via Plurk these days, but I do still read DW and I'm on AIM so I guess it's more that I find it easier to passively keep up via plurk (and I'm always afraid I'm being annoying if I IM someone.)

Basically you should do what makes you happy. ♥

[temples]

Thanks, Rina. ♥

AND CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR ENGAGEMENT, FUTURE MRS. PALADIN!

[lassarina]

thank you!! I keep meaning to make a DW post but NaNo ate my brain again.

[temples]

Any idea when the special day is going to be or is it way too soon for that? i'm totally not fishing for an invite or anything shhh

[lassarina]

♥

No idea at all. We shall have to figure it out but I don't even know where to start. gosh. I shall keep your lack of fishing behaviour in mind. ;)

[temples]

Keep me updated! You're legit the first of my friends to get engaged. GOOD SEE THAT YOU DO.

[lassarina]

I am well in the middle of the pack for mine. (At the last wedding we attended, multiple people more or less cornered paladin to demand when he was going to ask.)

[lassarina]

It's true! (though if, um, you would not mind, could you screen your comment with his last name? I try to avoid using it on the internet now. ♥)

I assume the best man's toast will include the story of the time our friends duct-taped us together at a New Year's Eve party. XD

[temples]

Done!

Somehow I'm not surprised someone resorted to that.

[lassarina]

thank you! I'm so sorry to have to ask and I know it's your space; I am just really kind of paranoid. ._.;; (I went back and locked/changed all the tags and entries that involved him.)

yyyyeah...me either. Of course that was then followed by His Ex Of Whom We Do Not Speak (and admittedly one of my less objectionable exes) and then after THAT we got together. XD

[prefacing]

I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO WITH PLURK.

Honestly, I toy with deleting plurk myself a lot, but I know that I, personally, probably wouldn't go through it since I like being in the loop RP-wise and I'd definitely lose a lot of that if I got rid of plurk.

But yeah, it's a hard decision. :( Plurk is toxic and addictive and that's really the worst combination.

I will still harass you forever on AIM though.

[temples]

IT REALLY IS. Going on it is like asking to, at some point, see something that's the emotional equivalent to a punch in the face, but we do it because... um.

You better! In fact, you need to harass me 500% more than you do now, my Stephanie! I am invisijes nearly 24/7 so fling messages into the abyss of offlineness, I will answer them eventually!

[seventhe]

I actually tried Plurk and couldn't deal with it, and I really think you've summed it up nicely here: why I couldn't deal. Yes.

Also my tags are yours any time <3

[temples]

Sev on plurk! GASP.

Yeah, it just... sucks. I'll stay here, I think.

/eats your tags om nom

[ninjawon]

I agree with all of this!! I used to think plurk was really fun when I had a couple of people friended, but then it slowly and surely got a little bigger and less rp-focused and more aaaah life!!! And I don't begrudge anyone using plurk as a way to vent out feelings because I've done it way too often, but I never know what to say to those kinds of plurks without coming off as...not-caring?? Even though I do care, but you can only do so much in a tiny plurk box with emoticons.

Also yes, I constantly worry about how I come off as when I write things because god forbid someone take what I write the wrong way or get a horrible first impression and BLAH way too stressful. I haven't been on plurk in ages and I'm just glad that I'm not anymore. I have all the people I care about friended on dreamwidth! And on gmail/AIM/tumblr!!! so no more plurk for me, and since plurk is being horrible to Jes, you have the absolute right to boot it out of your life! /cuddles Jes!!!

[temples]

Awwww, Yaywon. ♥ I've missed seeing you in particular on plurk but I'm glad you're doing what works for you! And I am super glad to have you friended on DW, so. /punts plurk!

[ninjawon]

♥♥♥♥ ALL THE PUNTING!!!

[sativa]

I add my support to deleting plurk as well. If it's not for you, it's not for you. It's the number one reason I deleted my facebook and I don't regret it a single bit, to be honest. I do wish you the best of luck and, like you said, the people who care already know how to contact you elsewhere.

and they will or you will and everything will hopefully be a heck of a lot happier.

[temples]

Yeah. Admittedly I haven't deleted it yet, because it is a pretty valuable resource for communication if nothing else, but I sure as hell haven't been on it, either. At least not longer for a few seconds at a time!

[novel_machinist]

I have never been on Plurk. And I do not intend to be on it. XD