Yaaaaawn

[temples]

1. I am so, so tired. I went to one of the silent study floors of the library to finish reading last week's Poli Sci chapter—mercifully the only class I am slightly behind on the reading in— and napped for an hour instead, read three of the six pages I have left, and came downstairs to sit at a computer and, idk. Drool to myself.


2. All I've had to eat today is a single half of a Mars Bar and I've fallen grossly behind, I think, on my eating list. Food, why do I hate and love you at the same time. Why can't we be friends, food. :(


3. Despite my tendency to flail utterly and panic at every little academic thing when I am, at least in theory, doing well and keeping up... I am looking at honours thesis and honours practicum courses to do in my fourth year. They'd be in labour studies, which is only half my major, but is honestly looking to be much more viable an option, career wise, than political science. (See, I get majorly ahead of myself because school? Even when I hate it, I love it.)
   
   So if you've done an honours thesis in undergrad, I'd love to hear from you! I'd need to write a letter of intent, which legit sounds like fun to myself, the biggest losergeek not also in Saved By The Bell. Buuut I'm pretty sure if I e-mailed Hot Professor with something like, "I know I'm only a first year but I want to do such and such three years away, let's get married and discuss it have dinner and discuss it discuss it over a very intense game of Super Smash Bros just plain discuss it!" he may end up wondering if I'm strange.
   
   Which I am.
   
   The trick is not letting THEM know that.
   
   i don't know who "them" is.


4. I keep staring at Chocobo Down trying to do something, but time is not on my side. :( I want to, and I need to write something in order to weasel myself back into FFEX after flaking out last whenever it was, and you know, Team Ramuh. But, I don't know how to put energy towards writing-writing anymore.


5. I just want to sleep. I'm legitimately considering "accidentally sleeping through", cough cough, my morning lecture tomorrow just for that reason. I've attended every lecture fastidiously up until now, missing one likely isn't going to kill me.

So that's me. How are you guys?

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[lassarina]

My undergrad thesis consisted of "throw together a kickass 18-page paper on the Knights Templar amid several bouts of throwing up the night before it was due and get an A despite that," so um...don't be me, except the "kickass/getting an A" part. You can do that one.

I have the headache from hell today (fuck, I thought I was dodging the weather headfuckery this time) but I did NaNo, so that's awesome. And I have my own post to write here in a few minutes.

[temples]

...holy crap. Yeah, leaving myself one night to do a thesis would sooner lead to a complete and utter breakdown than it would an A! It's awesome that you managed to do that.

How is your NaNo going?

[lassarina]

I am a rockstar at last-minute looming-deadline awesomeness. Truly. (Ask me about the time I wrote a 10-page history paper and an 8-page English Lit paper in the same night because they were both due the next day, aw yeah. Also got A's on those. I am amazing in crunch time.)

It's going ok! I broke 28K yesterday, going to top 30 today. By the end of Thanksgiving weekend I should be able to validate. I could probably do it faster, but I am having a rather rough month and so I will simply deal with "only" hitting 50K on the 25th.

[temples]

(I'm not going to ask you about that, because I would die of envy. I got my first official university paper back today and only got a B. My sadness to the moon.)

Yeah, that's right, you... settle for winning NaNo early! Settle! c:

[lassarina]

(I have a skillset uniquely suited to being a princess of academia, a skillset I am presently wasting by not going to grad school and not pursuing advanced degrees. It is really only good for that and spitting out words at high velocity for NaNo. I have a lot of feelings about the structure of academia and the way it privileges and prioritizes people like me, who have habits well-suited to it, and punishes people who don't have this particular set of brain-wiring.)

See, the thing is, I've won NaNo so many times (this will be #6 barring, you know, horrible death of everything) that "just" winning it almost doesn't count in my head because my brain is SO GOOD at moving the goalposts; my brain is never satisfied at what I can do. My original plan for this month involved writing something like 75K over the month and then only having about 5-10K to go to a full draft, but between rushing to finish Every Light at the end of October and various RL things, it's not going to happen. I'm disappointed in myself, but I'll live.

[temples]

Indeed you will! I've never gotten past more than 7K on my NaNo attempts, so you are free to look at that sad little fact and think, "at least I don't fail as hard as Jes does! (Although she is lovely. And very humble.)" See, sometimes you talk to yourself in parentheses. This is a judgment free zone!

Next year, you can do better! Assuming you're not too busy drunkenly racing your way through FFXII (or whichever game you'd be playing in November). That's a life choice I also support. :D

[lassarina]

I just eventually found a method that worked for me (have a detailed outline, always aim for 2k/day just to build up a cushion in case of weeks like this one where I failed hard two days), but everyone who wins NaNo is just someone who found the way that worked for them!

It is a good life choice! :D I think actually November is an off/catch-up month because we both want to do NaNo.

[temples]

I can't wait until I have time to do NaNo again. Even when I was just working, November was always one of the busiest and most exhausting months, with at least two six-day work weeks. One year, I am going to try it and CONQUER IT!

But I disapprove of this off-month thing because... because. (nottalking) ...sob I can flounce from plurk but I can't flounce from expressing myself in plurkmotes.

[lassarina]

November is a rough month in a lot of places. It's not too bad for me anymore (but at my customer service job it was hell on wheels). It's still doable even with a hell job (or was for me), but it required a LOT of planning and time management.

I miss plurkmotes when I am not on plurk so much. I'm not actually sure what we'll do with November; it's legit possible we'll still be playing FF10 then, because it's kind of a long game!

[temples]

I totally intend to secretly play FFX along with you when you do it. I actually just played it this summer — and then FFX-2 right after it because apparently I like pain, and it still just... adkfhg I don't even knowwwww. I just love that game. (I have no idea if I'm in the minority on that, but I know I'm definitely in the minority in thinking that Tidus is a great character and a great protagonist. I've made my peace with it. |D)

But yeah, definitely looking forward to you guys playing FFX.

[lassarina]

There's no need to do it secretly! We encourage play-alongs and group participation. :)

I haven't played FFX-2 since...2004? I keep meaning to go back and NG+ it but ffffff.

[temples]

Yeah. I actually beat FFX-2 for the first time this summer, since usually I get bored with the game's "plot" at the very end mark and stop playing, and then when I go back to it, I feel compelled to start from scratch, rinse and repeat! This summer, I beat is so hard. But when I wanted to do the NG+ right after, I lost all will five minutes in. THERE'S ONLY SO MUCH BOUNCINESS AND BUBBLEGUM POP I CAN TAKE.

Wow I'm saying a lot of words at you. The benefits of procrastinating!

[lassarina]

I grumbled my way to 60% completion the first time I Played it, which annoyed the pants off me because I should be able to do way more than that without a guide. Augh.

Sometimes bounciness is a nice antidote to, say, the grimness of an SMT game, though.

IT IS THE BEST THING. I actually have missed having comment chains on DW.

[temples]

I thiiiink the first time I played it, I finished with like, 35%? Of course by finished I mean, got to the end of Chapter 5, realised I didn't give a care and stopped. My most recent playthrough was... 91%, I think? Buuut I was more interested in beating Via Infinito than getting the full percentage, honestly.

Yeah, true story. Although that reminds me, I want to finish DDS1... (Having my ps-2 be packed away is majorly depressing since it was still my primary console.)

As have I! I was just pointing out to a friend earlier how much I prefer spamming DW than spamming, say, Plurk. Okay one day I will stop being a bitch about Plurk.

[lassarina]

I think honestly I am happier having a balance between DW and Plurk; there are things about Plurk that tie me up in knots but I genuinely do enjoy the blend of quick vs. delayed interaction that it makes possible.

On the other hand DW enables better thought-out discussions. I look at it as a both/and not an either/or, but I am getting relatively good at dealing with Plurk-related headbees, so there's that.

....I want to play video games now. BUT I HAVE TO WORDS. tragedeeeeee. ;_;

[temples]

Yeah, I'm totally staring at my computer screen thinking about my paper due on Monday and being like, "...BUT MY XBOX 360 IS RIGHT THERE." It's a very troubling dilemma. >:

[lassarina]

I need to finish editing Every Light by Sunday evening (which is to say I have done 9 chapters, or roughly 45K; I have another 26 chapters/130K to go) so I can send it to people before Thanksgiving, and also of course more NaNo words. AND I'M TRYING TO GET IN EXTRA WORDS IN ADVANCE OF P4: THE GOLDEN BECAUSE PERSONA.

but I really just want to be irresponsible and play games all the time, which is dumb because I did this to myself insisting on finishing EL before NaNo, and ugh.

[temples]

God, the Golden. Freaking P4, pulling me back in no matter how hard I try to quit it! PLAY IT FOR ME, RINA. I am too poor for a Vita. But, oh, if I wasn't.

Also I totally vote irresponsibility.

[lassarina]

I AM GOING TO PLAY IT SO MUCH. Most of my reaction shots will probably go on Plurk, but I will try to remember to collect them on DW as well, just for you. ♥

(I totally took advantage of a great deal that GameStop offered in the summer, where they'd give you a $50 gift card if you bought a Vita, which basically made the Vita like 20% off. I was ON THAT.)

...I would like to vote irresponsibility but I also want to finish this book and publish it, so. siiiiiiiigh why am I a grownup.

[temples]

You're a grown-up so you can be irresponsible! ...sigh. :(

I hate the fact that playing videogames isn't automatically conducive to productiveness in every other area of life. How dare dinner not cook itself while I play FFVIII for the 1300th time! D

[lassarina]

WHY DON'T I LIVE IN THE ROBOT FUTURE WHERE FOOD IS TAKEN CARE OF FOR ME!

Really I just need to manage my time better, but....meh. (I may get slightly better at this after Glitch closes, but more likely I'll just find some other way to be unproductive.)

[temples]

Yes, D. That's all I wanted to say there.

No, DW stripped out my punctuation. It was an angry frowny face!

[lassarina]

HTML escapes, oh no. (protip: &lt; will give you your frowny face. ^.^ Thus: D<)