Dear self,

You are much more productive if you are in a good mood. Yes, this week sucked and turned you into a barrel of lethargic monkeys with one tin of applesauce. GET OVER IT. See how much you've already accomplished, at almost-but-not-quite 10 a.m.?

REMEMBER THAT.

Love, Stupidface.




Dear self,

EAT THREE MEALS A DAY.

NO, REALLY.

IT HELPS.

Love, my fucking stomach.

p.s. I will get around to comments soon. I've just been in a mood.

1. I am so, so tired. I went to one of the silent study floors of the library to finish reading last week's Poli Sci chapter—mercifully the only class I am slightly behind on the reading in— and napped for an hour instead, read three of the six pages I have left, and came downstairs to sit at a computer and, idk. Drool to myself.


2. All I've had to eat today is a single half of a Mars Bar and I've fallen grossly behind, I think, on my eating list. Food, why do I hate and love you at the same time. Why can't we be friends, food. :(


3. Despite my tendency to flail utterly and panic at every little academic thing when I am, at least in theory, doing well and keeping up... I am looking at honours thesis and honours practicum courses to do in my fourth year. They'd be in labour studies, which is only half my major, but is honestly looking to be much more viable an option, career wise, than political science. (See, I get majorly ahead of myself because school? Even when I hate it, I love it.)
   
   So if you've done an honours thesis in undergrad, I'd love to hear from you! I'd need to write a letter of intent, which legit sounds like fun to myself, the biggest losergeek not also in Saved By The Bell. Buuut I'm pretty sure if I e-mailed Hot Professor with something like, "I know I'm only a first year but I want to do such and such three years away, let's get married and discuss it have dinner and discuss it discuss it over a very intense game of Super Smash Bros just plain discuss it!" he may end up wondering if I'm strange.
   
   Which I am.
   
   The trick is not letting THEM know that.
   
   i don't know who "them" is.


4. I keep staring at Chocobo Down trying to do something, but time is not on my side. :( I want to, and I need to write something in order to weasel myself back into FFEX after flaking out last whenever it was, and you know, Team Ramuh. But, I don't know how to put energy towards writing-writing anymore.


5. I just want to sleep. I'm legitimately considering "accidentally sleeping through", cough cough, my morning lecture tomorrow just for that reason. I've attended every lecture fastidiously up until now, missing one likely isn't going to kill me.

So that's me. How are you guys?